You always saw yourself as the victim, you turned out to be the venom at the centre of every family crisis. Now is no different.
You always wanted to win. Well done you have won. You have your children and your big house. I hope there is a house big enough to house your black heart and even blacker soul.
You will never realise this but I have won too. I now finally see you for what you are and so do others you have no regard for. I never realised this when I was trying with all I had to have a relationship with you in any small way. You never wanted me in your life. I tried too hard to hold on with both hands while you were constantly kicking me away.
People who care about me always saw you for what you are. They never told me. Until now. Now that you have shown me your true colours, manipulative, cruel, petty, using your children as emotional weapons where you once used our youngest sister, delusional in you thinking you were always a victim, I FINALLY SEE YOU in the same light as those who care about me.
Since you can never truly look at yourself and question what you are doing wrong, you will never be able to grow into a better person. You deserve your life of delusion. I win again. I have had no choice but to face some hard truths over the last 7 years. For this I have come out a better person. I am able to forge relationships. You convinced me I couldn’t. I am able to enjoy my life. You never wanted this for me.
My husband would tell me that you could never fit into my world. He is right. My world is made up of hard working, decent people. They are exactly the sort of people who see right through you, as I do now. They are the sort of people who want to lift me up. You wanted to tear me down.
You always bring out the worst in me. Then convince me that is who I am. Your manipulation knows no bounds.
You have your venomous fangs in the youngest one. I don’t think she will ever see you for what you truly are. How can she. She has been sipping your poison since birth. I hope one day she is able to break free from your venomous bite. I can’t help but wonder, do people who care about her see you for what you are and won’t tell her, as people who care about me did but never told me.
I was always told you suffer in this life if you are a nasty person, that karma finds its way. You have always had health problems, ever since you were a baby. I stood by your side and even went as far as to ask to mum why are you suffering so much you’re a nice person. I was brainwashed about what you truly were then. I couldn’t see you. I couldn’t see the dark aura surrounding you. I couldn’t see that you were a vortex trying to suck me down. You deserve everything you get.
I have tried and tried to look forward. Your long reaching grasp will always reaches me. I will never truly be free of you. Try as I might.
Stay out of my life. Get out of my head. Get what you deserve. You are a nasty person. Drop dead in a gutter.
No longer yours to hurt.
Your oldest sister.