You never did understand the ripple effect of your words and actions. You are too busy being the victim of your made up world and stories. I saw you through your manipulate lens, through this lens I saw you as my superior, you cast a black shadow in which i lived. No more. I see you now for what you really are. How you’re seen by those who saw through your manipulation straight away. You’ve stolen years of my life. No more.
You sent me fake happy birthday well wishes. You broke my spirit by doing this. You’ll never see or understand this. You’ll spin your Web of lies and convince yourself and the Js you did the right thing. It wasn’t. You didn’t. You haven’t messaged me for years. You should have kept it that way and stayed in the shadows of my life. You don’t belong in my light any longer. No more.
I knew 4 years ago you’d put me through hell then come clawing your way back like nothing has happened. My prophecy came true. You have done exactly this. Well I’m not the same person I was 5 years ago. I have opened my eyes. I have closed my heart to your painful grasp. No more.
I was awake at 1.30am 20 Sep 25. It’s now 2am and sleep eludes me. How many more nights will i spend fighting your grasp. I try so hard to get away from your hold. You always find a way back in. I don’t see that ever changing. But I have. I’ve spent 4 days writhing rather than 4 months. 4 years even. Maybe one day I’ll get to 4 seconds and be able to cart you out of my mind.
No longer yours to manipulate,
N